It’s no secret that a Christian momma starts to see the love of the Father differently once she has a child. We see example after example of God teaching parents more about Himself through children. This has been no exception for me. The love I have for my son is something I could never explain. I could never fathom it before I was a mom. I could never expect my heart to be so. . . full. It’s truly unfathomable to think that God loves me even more. 

This is going to be one of the posts where I tell you that I am struggling. Struggling with the unknown, the “what ifs”, the anxiety. God has put a few things in my life that have been challenging for me lately. That’s the thing about God. He loves me so much that He is not content to let me go through life without any challenges or without any struggle. The struggle forces me to rely on Him. I have to cling to Him daily, or sometimes, I don’t think I would be able to put one foot in front of the other. 

Well, the other day, my son, Logan, was with my husband in another room. I heard my husband tell Logan, “No.” Of course, my almost one-year old is not a fan of that word. He started crying and I heard my husband say:

Buddy, I’m just looking out for you.

It stopped me in my tracks. Say what you want about reading into spiritual moments, but I believe God communicates with us and in that moment, that phrase was for me. I have no doubt. God was saying to me:

I know it hurts. I know you are struggling. I know you really, really want certain things. But, I am looking out for you. 

I don’t want to be struggling. I hate having to fight daily for joy when I wrestle with unknowns. But whatever God has in store for me, I can count on the fact that He has my best interest in mind. 

There is an enemy out there to destroy us. We often take this truth too lightly. When we are striving to honor Christ, that seems to be when the hits come even more. The Devil is out to destroy us. We must fight him by fighting for rest in Christ alone. It is a daily battle, and sometimes it is excruciating. But, it is worth it. Someday, I know I will understand this better. 

Cling to His promises today! And know you aren’t alone in the fight. So. . .  

keep. fighting. 

Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved. 

Psalm 55:22