Good News (and the fear in my eyes)


I apologize I have been so silent lately! As most of you know, my husband and I are expecting baby #2 in September! The first trimester sucked all my energy from me and I was in a constant state of “fog.” I really didn’t have any desire to get on here and write. Also, all of those wonderful goals and plans went out the window. Back to raisin brand in the mornings over here! I hope to get back on track soon. I have been pretty nauseous and the nausea is just now going away. Yay!

Our little ones will be exactly 2 years apart. No, seriously, they may very well be *exactly* 2 years apart. They have the same due date! Haha! Logan came only one day after his due date, so I’m sort of hoping these 2 don’t share the same birthday!

Logan and I have been in a groove lately. I’m getting to know him, and he’s getting to know me. We are clicking along and this whole parenthood thing is finally getting just a  little bit. . . well. . . easier. I have heard so many conflicting thoughts and opinions on bringing #2 into the family. Many say it was way easier then the transition to #1 and others say it was harder. This leads me to the conclusion that there is no way anyone can predict whether it will be easier or harder to welcome #2 into the family. It depends on so many different factors. It depends on your personality, your oldest child’s personality/behavior when the little one comes. . . And even more so, it depends on the demeanor of the new baby. The new baby will be nothing like his/her older sibling, so how do you adjust to that? How does the baby fit into the flow of the home? Are you able to plain old keep it together?! (I’m not so sure if I will be able to do that last part.)

Behind all of the excitement, when people tell me “congrats!”, they can probably see some fear in my eyes if they look close enough. I can’t predict any of those above questions. I don’t know what is going to happen. I know that we want this baby and are so excited to expand our family to 4. I know that God’s grace is sufficient. That’s the bottom line. He is using Logan to teach me so much about myself, and I know He won’t stop. I will have to rely on Him for strength and for grace through those sleepless nights and long nursing sessions.

Being a mom truly is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am realistic about the fact that it will get harder. But, it will be the means through which God continues to sanctify me and mold me into the woman He desires me to be. So, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

We are so excited to meet you #2! We love you already and have room in this home and in our hearts for you, no matter what! ❤



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